…every god damned day of my life.
but I’m tired of you entering and leaving my life as you please
I’m tired of questioning my worth to you and to everyone around me
I find that it’s better to be alone because that way I don’t have to deal with constantly trying to be good enough, adequate enough, interesting enough, so that people continue to want me around.
I’m tired of justifying my existence.
Sure, I’m tired of being lonely..
but I’m even more tired of giving my all to people who could care less about me.
I will always love you with all of my soul. I hope you find love, I hope you find success in all of your endeavors, and most of all, I hope you live a long and prosperous life that makes you see that life is worth living.
I know I can not survive being left again and so I have chosen to protect and fend for myself, because I deserve it. I’m sure you’ll never see this but I have been needing to speak my feelings into existence for a very long time and I can no longer hold it all in and pretend that I’m fine. It’s about time that I put myself first.






